Day 19 – I am Grateful

May 19th, 2016   •   no comments   

iaskedHello all,

I am grateful! I want to share my gratitude today with and for the MPC Women and anyone else who is here with us or whom you share with. You all are EXCEPTIONAL WOMEN, COLLECTIVELY AND INDIVIDUALLY.

I read a post written by Jill Will on May 22, 2015, from where she shared my testimony and these words were written: ” Her testimony but really it is OURS for we are a family that prays together…and thank God!”

Yes, your testimony is OUR testimony, your struggles are OUR struggles, your victories are OUR victories. You are never ever alone.

Let me ask you something – as you have been on this journey, did you feel alone; like no one really would understand; have you had thoughts of mass destruction and then felt guilty; are you feeling guilty cause you have not let go of some things, because it hurts too much and has for so long?

You are never alone – you are never alone. If there are any intercessors out here today, I ask that you intercede on behalf of your sisters – and yourself. ( little secret – as an intercessor, I frequently neglect me)

Thank you Lord, as You bless me to spiritually mature and you are so real about my being a work in progress, because you allow me daily to be your clay – I thank you! My heart is glad ( even though tears my flow), when I can’t say a word of praise or gratitude, you reach within with the Holy Spirit to make intercession for me and I am grateful.

My sister – who ever you are, I feel you as I type this. While your heart is troubled, I am standing here for you – I understand! Details are not necessary, just know that God has spoken to me and please don’t let Go. I love you!

I dedicate this song to you today https://youtu.be/4Fx3l2DMDh4

and this one which is reference in the previous song:

https://youtu.be/XtiHeCwcRO0

Rev. Jacki

Day 18 – Praying Your Strength

May 18th, 2016   •   no comments   

Rev AnthonyGood morning,

Praying your strength today.

Thank you, Dear Lord for carrying me through everything in my life. Today, my desire is to believe, affirm and be strengthened by:

Walking in Your light and accepting your promises. You love me just as I am and I too will learn to love me as You love me; Not attacking myself; Embracing Your teachings to forgive everyone and everything and most of all to forgive myself. I release guilt and I breathe out fear. I will not be afraid of these changes that are coming forth through the Holy Spirit.

Create the presentYour light shines brightly within me and from this day forward, I no longer need to seek attention from others or approval. I long for You; my Needs now are to live in Your grace and mercy and not crave anything from anyone or any situation any longer.
I desire to fully emit the love that You are and that I become one with You in pure joy. But, most of all I want to trust.

Your words soothe my soul ” Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me. Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father. And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything in My name, I will do it. At that day you will know that I am in My Father, and you in Me, and I in you. And he who loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and manifest Myself to him.” – Thank You Lord for your words of comfort, protection and love from John 14. In Jesus name it is done. AMEN!

Rev. Jacki

P.S. The first graphic is from a minister partner and friend Rev Anthony!

 

Day 17 – Look at Forgiveness

May 17th, 2016   •   no comments   

Grievances HideGood morning,

I recently read this: Love holds no grievances. If you are holding grievances, it is impossible to know your Self.

The original thought was to guide you, as the reader through a grievance protocol; then I thought, as we go through this journey to release triggers, today that would be counterproductive. I received confirmation in prayer that I am on the right track. Today, let’s look at forgiveness:

We have been encouraged to forgive since the beginning of time – this not a new concept. It is however a necessary journey for us to know ourselves and take to reach our level of greatness in Christ Jesus – to fully recognize the plans that our Father in Heaven through Jesus Christ has for us.

I used to stand by this statement: ” If you cannot remember the details of the grievance, then you have forgiven” and that is WRONG thinking because that implies that it is okay to still hold on to some vestiges of the grievance and just that little bit can result in hidden triggers that we have.

Here is what we say and I thank and praise God this morning for God’s responses:

I will forgive but I will NOT forget:
And God responds: Daughter : “You will again have compassion on us; you will tread our sins underfoot and hurl all our iniquities into the depth of the sea.” Micah 7:19 (NIV)

It has happened many many times:
And God responds: Daughter: “Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother ( sister, mother, father, siblings, supervisor, Pastor, friend, person in the street, while I am driving, etc), when he sins against me? Up to seven times? “Jesus answered, ” I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times, ( without conditions).” Matthew 18:21-22 ( NIV and my additions)

I hurt
And God responds: Daughter – “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavily burdened [by religious rituals that provide no peace – like forgiveness maybe?], and I will give you rest [refreshing your souls with salvation].Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me [following Me as My disciple – that ain’t easy either cause rolling neck, people], for I am gentle and humble in heart, and ( not but) YOU WILL FIND REST [renewal, blessed quiet of those voices] FOR YOUR SOULS. For MY yoke is easy [to bear] and MY burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 (AMP with my additions)

And God spoke to me ( I am not sure if this message is just for me – type Amen or Ouch if it touches you) ” when you hold on to those things, unforgiveness, forgiveness with conditions, grievances, you keep MY broken body nailed to the cross. Is that your desire Daughter? Is your pain so great, that I should remain on the Cross; not be resurrected and provide you with a comforter in the Holy Spirit?

And if it is, I will still love you; I will hold you in my arms as you are still my Vessel of Honor. I LOVE you and my LOVE for you holds no grievances.

Rev. Jacki

Day 16 – Another Fresh Start Monday

May 15th, 2016   •   no comments   

Father, It hurtsIt’s Fresh Start Monday!

You are created by God. As God’s magnificent gift, you are love, lovable and loving. Commit to that in your mind. Today erase anything else. The Holy Spirit is the magnet that will wipe away the old tapes.

 

Loved more than you knowI praise You, my Lord, I praise You! It’s praises for You continually being in my mouth that help me to not get it twisted for nothing about Life is ever about me or any one or any thing else-just & only about You! I do so praise You, God! I praise You that You bless us to be continually blessed because of who & how You always are: a praiseworthy God! Praise, You, God; praise You!

 

Rev. Jacki

Day 15 – Day of Pentecost

May 15th, 2016   •   no comments   

Only God's PowerGood morning,

The Day of Pentecost is our 15th day together on our SpiritWoman journey. On the day of Pentecost, in the year A.D. 30, 120 followers of a man named Jesus were gathered together in Jerusalem. Suddenly the Spirit of God filled each one of them and marked them with tongues of fire.

Those 120 disciples were just a handful of rather ordinary men and women, a few fishermen, a couple of housewives, a former tax collector, a few farmers and some servant girls. Yet through these ordinary people God built a Church.

SomedayOn this beautiful Sunday, reflect on the Holy Spirt, your comforter and allow yourself to fall in love and cast all your cares on Jesus; we have obtained the staying power of God to see us through all the ups and downs of life. The Holy Spirit brings his power into our lives in a quiet and unobtrusive way.

Today’s affirming statements:
I have Holy Ghost Power to move from anything that hinders, stops or blocks my relationship with Jesus Christ.

I am free!

God Bless You!

Rev. Jacki

Day 14 – Don’t Let People Upset You

May 13th, 2016   •   no comments   

Don't Let People Upset You

Good morning,

Well, we are 14 days in and I don’t know about you, BUT IT HAPPENED BIG. Let’s just say I was not singing SMILE by Kirk Franklin. Noooo, oh Noooo, more like my very own lyrics to STOMP and no, wasn’t a word of God in my version.

What happened, I did not pause, I did not think. I REACTED internally. A whole range of emotions went on and it was like Gospel music meeting up at a Heavy Metal concert – that is an antitheses. It ain’t happening.

To be honest, when we are in full force trigger drive, we resemble this visual and it is not for the faint at heart:

https://66.media.tumblr.com/…/tumblr_o6gj5aGk4a1v5ijj7o1_54…

Yes, this visual places it in perspective!

As I came back to reality, I had to Give God glory, praise and honor God for mercy. As tore up as I was attempting to be and as foolish as I allowed myself to get – thank God for Jesus sacrifice, I prayed:

Jesus, I thank You for the Wisdom of knowing just how vitally necessary prayer is to our lives. This ceaseless means of connecting & communicating with You is the heartbeat of our salvation & the uplifting of our hearts, minds & souls. Jesus, it was Your pray-er for God’s will to be done & not Your own that led You to the excruciating Cross of Calvary out of obedience to our Father & agape Love for us all. And still, even now, “the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness for we do not know what to pray for, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groans that words can’t express.” This means prayers go forth ceaselessly on our behalf for again, God, You knew in the beginning just how much we, Your love-created, yet wayward people, would perpetually stand in need of prayer. So yes, my Lord, I praise You for prayer, because You know I sho’ nuff need it – both to offer and receive it all the time! Hallelujah, Hallelujah!

Yes, I am grateful to say I am a fool for Christ sake from 1 Corinthians 4:10.

Have a wonderful Saturday and Gospel Fit event!

Rev. Jacki

Day 13 – Commitment & Resolution

May 13th, 2016   •   no comments   

Always Everywhere God is

Good morning,

Friday the 13th – Has some one ever made a commitment to you and not kept it? Is that one of the triggers areas that you may have. As a result, of the broken commitment, it sometimes results in anger, distrust, hurt, loss of security, apathy, self-debasement and whatever you fill in the blank with.

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Have you made resolutions, commitment to take time out for God by committing to a devotional period, bible study, prayer and time has gotten away from that plan and life just happens. Aren’t you glad that God’s has a different response to those commitments that we make and David shares with us this:

But you, Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.” (Psalm 86:15)

God’s reaction is so different from ours as humans being human. Please don’t take this as a means to bring yourself down, but celebrate yourself by forgiving yourself for any and everything. Because God does that for us – Jeremiah 1:5(a): “”Before I formed you in your mother’s womb I chose you. Before you were Don't Give Upborn I set you apart.”

The book of James tells us to be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry. I will tell you, that just is not an easy task, just like taking our time for a prayer, meditation, devotions and even journaling. Sometimes, we place a time period – for example: ” I am going to designate 1 hour” and if we cannot do the hour, we trigger.

Let me unpack this from a different perspective. Our minds have a way of jamming us up by playing old tapes that contain self-limiting talks and we listen. Today, you be the boss of you! When the mind starts that, tell yourself that it’s not in charge. It can’t run your life like a misbehaved child anymore.

If you are unable to set apart a time for what you perceive is your devotional period, think on this as a beginning and you will find a practice for sitting quietly that works for you. When you are with a friend having coffee, the mind is focused on the friend, listening intently, paying close attention, being there. And that’s what sitting with God is like. So as you go through your day, take 5 or 10 minutes to sit with God. It can seem strange at first, because it seems like no-one/nothing is there. Remember God is always present with us every minute of our being, so the lines of communication are always open for connection.

The time spent will change your perspective and your commitment to desire more and those that others may have made to you.

Rev. Jacki

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Day 12 – I CAN Do This

May 12th, 2016   •   no comments   

I can do this

Morning,

Releasing Attachments. My body slapped me and I had to apologize. I thank you for praying for my healing each and every time that my Mother and my Sisters shared I was in need of prayer. I owe you an apology as well. You prayed for me and yes, I have not been of late a good Steward of my body and your prayers. It is important as I am on this journey to be transparent about my struggles as well.

I have been praying about my triggers and negative attachments that essentially are what I have placed above God and that hinders my walk, with HIM. Last night I turned off the television at 9 pm – attachment, which does not yeild fruit; as a diabetic, I was for awhile on a journey, reducing the level of medication and instead of continuing, I added in unhealthy foods, resorted to a lack of exercise and reverted to stressors – all negative attachments.

I saw these attachments as sin that I am actively and knowingly engaging in. In my vision, I was walking on the beach towards the water ( the beach is my favorite place), really not walking but lumbering, and tied to my waist was a heavy rope. I was lumbering along because attached to the rope was a strong box. The box contained those attachments mentioned, my triggers, stressors, dreams deferred, fears, the I can’ts, anger, all of that and more that I have yet to uncover. It was so heavy and it slowed me down.

In my vision, I have a knife large enough to cut the rope, but I hesitate, almost fearfully. I hear the soft sweet comforting whisper say: “Trust in ME with all your heart And DAUGHTER do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways JUST acknowledge ME, And I promise you, I will direct your path.” Proverbs 3:5-6 (paraphrased)

Right at that moment, it was like going through the billows, a time of refreshment. I turned and cut the rope. For a second, I felt fear and God spoke again “Be determined and confident. Do not be afraid! I will be with you. I will not fail you or abandon you.” —Deuteronomy 31:6 (paraphrased)

Rev. Jacki

Day 11 – Let Go…Love has you

May 11th, 2016   •   no comments   

Let go...Love has you

Good Morning,

Day 11. Wellness Wednesday!

I have been meditating on this passage of scripture – 1Peter 5: 7-9:

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of suffering.”

Yes, this is a time for our viligence. I, however focused on verse 9 because we are reminded that we are not in this alone – throughout this world, there are so many as well. It is communal. Remember our vision, our transformation is one that doesn’t just focus on us as individuals but as whole! The whole premise of the valley of dry bones!

Today, may I suggest, that we affirm:

💓To be VIGILANT, I watch my thoughts.

💓I assume 100% responsibility for my thoughts.

💓 I am not a victim of the world I see because I can choose to change my thoughts and thereby change my world.

💓 Being vigilant also opens the doorway for God’s help because I can choose once again and ask Him for it.

💓When I choose God’s guidance, the whole universe bends to help me through the power of His Love.

💓Herein lies the peace of God.

Remember, you are not alone in this journey. My prayers are that all is well with you. We have been working hard and may feel some mental and physical exhaustion. Take some time for you to stretch, smile and breathe deeply and exhale.

You are love and loved!

Rev. Jacki

Day 10 – Goodbye Old Habits

May 10th, 2016   •   no comments   

Sharp Edged Children

Good Morning God’s Daughters,

Is saying Goodbye to our habits, ways and past difficult. I loved the song from Gladys Knight, but until I actually downloaded the lyrics – this statement: “For some unGodly reason we just won’t let it die” it took on another meaning for me as I pray it did for you.

God's Hands and Heart

It is unGodly for us to hold on to things as God says in his word: Isaiah 43:18-19 – “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” This is a saving scripture for me as it lifted me our of depression and ALL that comes with it.

This is not an easy job because as we examine our triggers, stressors, hurts, losses, pain, we really are asking either our Inner Child to grow up or telling the Inner Critic, it is not so! We have lived with both because our Inner Child is our innocence and our strength. The Inner Critic is a tyrant and a bully, bossing you around, making you feel bad, and telling you that you are guilty and not doing things right.

Some of the Inner Tryant has surfaced because some of us feel that things are our fault and we just can’t let go. It’s not! It is far more complicated than that, but when we do the work and watch and pray, it will become simpler, we just have to want to do the work. That is the complication.

This is an exercise that has helped me work on me. It was difficult, I cried, I was angry, but I pushed through, so please: In your journal or on a piece of paper or index card, write at the top of the page: SHARP EDGED CHILDREN’S TOYS – TOYS OF BATTLE and then write down all the behaviors and emotional states you have been “playing” with that are hurting you and today be determined to PUT YOUR TOYS AWAY. An example is provided below

On Dec 26, your Pastor Rev. Daymond preached about being childlike. in his sermon entitled “Bringing Your Children to Jesus”. Today I ask you after this exercise to get quiet and notice within you is a child and this child is your innocence, this child is your strength and this child is the Christ that resides within you. “I am crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but it is Christ who lives in me.”—Galatians 2:20. Remember, you are God’s daughter – Remember, remember, and praise God for the inner critic would have you believe otherwise and it just ain’t so! I send you love and I pray daily for us all!

Rev. Jacki

 

 

 

 

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